i was talking to my aptmate last night and i realized that the first semester wasn't as bad as i expected. sure, finals week was still hell, but it was different than college finals because i actually knew the material that i was studying. college finals = learning all the stuff you should've learned throughout the quarter. law school finals = making sure all the stuff you already learned throughout the semester stays in your head. sure, my social life consisted of saying hi to classmates before class and complaining about larc with my aptmates, but i had no qualms about spending more time with books than with people because that's the reason why i came all the way to chicago for school.
after getting through one semester, i decided that this law school thing is doable after all. looking back, there are a couple of things that helped me survive this semester: constant prayer by my family, my awesome aunt and her family who live in chicago (seriously, would not have survived without them), my small group (hanging out with non-law school people is key), ichat sessions with family and friends, a few chill classmates, and constant reminders that God is in control so i don't have to worry about the future so long as i am doing my best in the present.
the key to law school, and even life, is to take it one step at a time. i stopped thinking about getting a job, passing the bar and getting good grades. i just focused on doing my best in the moment because if i did my best in every moment, then the end result will reflect that, right? even if it doesn't, i think i'll be content knowing that i did my best and anything less than what i expect is merely because that's how things are supposed to turn out. don't get me wrong, i still had moments when i was stressed out about school and my future, but those were passing moments. the theme for me this semester was this: God is in control. he really was... and still is.
in three hours, i'll be on a plane. LA, i'm coming home! =]
